A little post that I put in my blog, don't know how many read the blogs, so I am posting here:
I sat here and thought about the slip for a long time last night,
and what it almost cost me. A reset? Telling everyone I gave up?
Going back to the hell of smoking? I am not going to give up what I
started, having a couple of the hard days behind me. The hardest thing
to do is make a post that you slipped, and know you are letting people
down here that are giving you heartfelt encouragement.
So, a couple
new reasons not to have another smoke:
No "give up" posts to disappoint everyone
That slip was my final goodbye... from smoking.
Keep my quitting attitude going, I am on day 5... need to know in
my head that a slip was just that, and I have been and continue to work
at it.
Because I realize now you get cool little logos for milestones.
Hopefully everyone still sees my resolve in quitting. The one
thing that has stayed in my head was something that bobinsc wrote to me
that this is my quit, and that it could be seen in my resolve. I hope
so. I slipped on day 4 and week 3 on my first quit that lasted for 2
years. This time, I am taking out the slip on week 3, and this will be
my last quit that lasts forever.
I may have lost this round, but I am going to win the war!
Yes, I smoked, and I will own up to it. Back on the wagon today, no smokes, and more determined than ever. Like I said before, the one time I did quit for a couple years... exact same thing happened at day 4. I am a bit stronger on this quit than I was in the previous one. I am not going to dwell on the slip or having the smoke (I tend to call it a slip, because I let my "addict self" win), I could have done nothing this week and smoked the 60 some odd cigarettes I would have consumed in 5 days. The way I am going at this now, if I let this get me down and go back, who's to say when the next quit attempt would be? I think sometimes are mindsets can be different, and from looking on here no two quit attempts are a like. Some goof up like I did, some take a few tries, some go cold turkey, some use NRT, etc. Whatever I have to tell myself or do to win at this point, that is what I am doing. The quit is a personal one, just like it is for everyone else. This is just "under the microscope" a little bit more since we come here for counseling. I couldn't have come this far without this place. Good luck Sparky... you have made it past week one, this is your time and your quit. 
I have looked on here for the past few days, and have seen what a journey this has been for you. It's tough, but you are doing better than I am right now, so keep at it! 
